In order to be myself

I don’t sleep enough

I stay up till late every night

Cause it’s the one time 

That I can be myself

Without worrying about judging peers

Without worrying about overachieving parents

Without worrying about younger siblings tracking my every move

Waiting for me to slip up

Waiting for something, anything

That they can use against me

Instead of dealing with all that,

I’m a coward

I avoid it

I wait till no one’s awake,

Then I let all my feelings out