My True Self

I lie every day,
to my friends and family, to my teachers, and to myself.
I tell people that I don't mind what they say,
that it doesn't affect me, that I am okay,
but it's all lies.
I am not strong, and I hate that,
I hate it that my friends and family don't realize the power they hold over me,
their words break me every day,
I want them to know the true me,
and my true feelings,
But I will never tell them,
so I write this poem and hope they never see it
Because today, I'm gonna write something truthful and strong
I am pansexual
I use she/they pronouns,
And I am terrified of my father and stepmother
because they are homophobic racist and transphobic
but dont worry
I'm okay!
because I lie every day.