Walking into the New Horizon

I dreamed I was lost, walking into an abyss
I was calling out, but no one would listen
I woke up with this fear that no one cared
And I was filled with nothingness throughout

 

I realize that I've never been perfect
Trying to forget all the hurt I have hidden inside
This is not how I had imagined it all in my mind
And I wait for someone to come and save me from myself

 

All I have is thoughts full of negativity
Overthinking & justifying how everyone is perceiving me
With nothing to gain or lose, feeling hollow and alone
These thoughts spin at the speed of light in my head

 

So many things I want to say are left unsaid that it’s hard to let go
Things aren’t the way I had hoped at all
I am surprised, yet I came this far pushing myself
And now I stand at the edge of this masquerade

 

I look strong on the surface but I am broken within
That I don’t even recognize myself anymore
I don’t know how I got here but it all this ends now
As I shed these masks and be myself again

 

I will wash away all this venom off my body
Wash away all this uncertainty, pain and sorrow I have held for so long
I will be healed and I will start to feel again
I will be whole again in a place where I belong

 

I will break the pattern, trade myself for something new
I now know that solution is indeed so simple
That, new beginning sometimes is the only way
And I will walk into this new horizon where the sun will rise for me all the way!