You can't love another if you don't love yourself -

notformymother

But they never said that you couldn't try anyways.

 

I have poured misplaced love in each gap I've crossed

Behind locked eyes with rose colored vision,

I gave a part of myself away with each glance

In another failed attempt of a rescue mission.

 

Day after day, I chipped away.

And maybe it was easier that way,

To write a love letter instead of a goodbye.

To put the power to hurt in someone else's hands,

So I could nurse the unseen cuts they left behind. 

 

I no longer seek self-injurious lust disguised as love.

I am not a vessel for someone else's pain.

I look for strength in myself and not above,

And I no longer say the names of those who hurt me most in vain.

I choose to find gratitude in the parts of my life that were hardest to survive,

And I have made a conscious decision to value those around me without self deprecation.

 

After all, I was the one who kept myself alive,

And for that I have my appreciation.

  • Author: notformymother (Offline Offline)
  • Published: October 21st, 2021 14:45
  • Comment from author about the poem: I've recently understood what it's like to feel like a complete person without the influence of others on my self-worth. I'm excited to be learning about who I am - instead of who I have become for the convenience of others. Anyways, it's my first time publishing a poem online so I hope someone reads this and it resonates with where you are in your journey.
  • Category: Reflection
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  • Lyriclitty

    Feeling whole and complete without one’s validation that’s a beautiful place to be . I’m working on my journey thanks for the inspiration

    • notformymother

      Thank you! I wish you the very best with your journey.

    • L. B. Mek

      well written, bravely expressed
      delivering an empowering message,
      thanks for sharing

      • notformymother

        Thank you very much L.B.! I appreciate the kind and thoughtful words



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