But they never said that you couldn't try anyways.
I have poured misplaced love in each gap I've crossed
Behind locked eyes with rose colored vision,
I gave a part of myself away with each glance
In another failed attempt of a rescue mission.
Day after day, I chipped away.
And maybe it was easier that way,
To write a love letter instead of a goodbye.
To put the power to hurt in someone else's hands,
So I could nurse the unseen cuts they left behind.
I no longer seek self-injurious lust disguised as love.
I am not a vessel for someone else's pain.
I look for strength in myself and not above,
And I no longer say the names of those who hurt me most in vain.
I choose to find gratitude in the parts of my life that were hardest to survive,
And I have made a conscious decision to value those around me without self deprecation.
After all, I was the one who kept myself alive,
And for that I have my appreciation.
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Author:
notformymother (
Offline) - Published: October 21st, 2021 14:45
- Comment from author about the poem: I've recently understood what it's like to feel like a complete person without the influence of others on my self-worth. I'm excited to be learning about who I am - instead of who I have become for the convenience of others. Anyways, it's my first time publishing a poem online so I hope someone reads this and it resonates with where you are in your journey.
- Category: Reflection
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Comments2
Feeling whole and complete without one’s validation that’s a beautiful place to be . I’m working on my journey thanks for the inspiration
Thank you! I wish you the very best with your journey.
well written, bravely expressed
delivering an empowering message,
thanks for sharing
Thank you very much L.B.! I appreciate the kind and thoughtful words
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