Lyriclitty

Pharmaceutical Russian roulette

Pouring libations from my eyes

In remembrance of the past

From where I came from:

 

Painful humbling beginnings

 

To where I want to be :

 

Unbreakable strength and self healed

 

To where I am :

 

Struggling to find out who I am where I belong and what is spiritual truth

 

These are all totally different places

 

I hold sentiment in the present moment as I reflect upon these changes

 

Diagnosed mentally unstable

 

I yearn to break the label

 

Gain health of mind

 

To show I’m abled

 

Sedation by medication 💊

 

To bate down my emotional disturbances

Just cause me to long to be released

 

I dare not stop swallowing them though

 

The uncensored rollercoaster of my mind will be unleashed and I destroy everything I cross without memory in hindsight is my unrelenting fear 😨

 

 

The most perilous and scariest truth is that some whole experiences are absent

 

What sense is this

 

How do I transcend this ailment

 

I don’t want a pacifier I need the cure

 

Red pill blue bill pharmaceutical Russian roulette

 

I’d rather take the red pill and know life changing truth

 

Than to be contented in ignorance with the blue pill

 

I bet there is weed in the red pill lol

 

I have intuition that natural medicine is the only way to treat it

 

I just got to find out how to do it

 

 

 

 

Pouring libations from my eyes

In remembrance of the past

From where I came from:

 

Painful humbling beginnings

 

To where I want to be :

 

Unbreakable strength and self healed

 

To where I am :

 

Struggling to find out who I am where I belong and what is spiritual truth

 

These are all totally different places

 

I hold sentiment in the present moment as I reflect upon these changes

 

Diagnosed mentally unstable

 

I yearn to break the label

 

Gain health of mind

 

To show I’m abled

 

Sedation by medication 💊

 

To bate down my emotional disturbances

Just cause me to long to be released

 

I dare not stop swallowing them though

 

The uncensored rollercoaster of my mind will be unleashed and I destroy everything I cross without memory in hindsight is my unrelenting fear 😨

 

 

The most perilous and scariest truth is that some whole experiences are absent

 

What sense is this

 

How do I transcend this ailment

 

I don’t want a pacifier I need the cure

 

Red pill blue bill pharmaceutical Russian roulette

 

I’d rather take the red pill and know life changing truth

 

Than to be contented in ignorance with the blue pill

 

I bet there is weed in the red pill lol

 

I have intuition that natural medicine is the only way to treat it

 

I just got to find out how to do it

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pouring libations from my eyes

In remembrance of the past

From where I came from:

 

Painful humbling beginnings

 

To where I want to be :

 

Unbreakable strength and self healed

 

To where I am :

 

Struggling to find out who I am where I belong and what is spiritual truth

 

These are all totally different places

 

I hold sentiment in the present moment as I reflect upon these changes

 

Diagnosed mentally unstable

 

I yearn to break the label

 

Gain health of mind

 

To show I’m abled

 

Sedation by medication 💊

 

To bate down my emotional disturbances

Just cause me to long to be released

 

I dare not stop swallowing them though

 

The uncensored rollercoaster of my mind will be unleashed and I destroy everything I cross without memory in hindsight is my unrelenting fear 😨

 

 

The most perilous and scariest truth is that some whole experiences are absent

 

What sense is this

 

How do I transcend this ailment

 

I don’t want a pacifier I need the cure

 

Red pill blue bill pharmaceutical Russian roulette

 

I’d rather take the red pill and know life changing truth

 

Than to be contented in ignorance with the blue pill

 

I bet there is weed in the red pill lol

 

I have intuition that natural medicine is the only way to treat it

 

I just got to find out how to do it

 

 

 

  • Author: Mi’Shila Jewel Vickers (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: October 21st, 2021 20:25
  • Comment from author about the poem: My struggle with mental health
  • Category: Unclassified
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Comments4

  • Thekkinkkattil


    You have penned your emotions very well and very poetic.Take this route and all the problems will go away.Use your talent to gain health

    • Lyriclitty

      Thank you I appreciate your encouragement, and also for taking the time to acknowledge my work ❤️

    • L. B. Mek

      I like your use of repetition, to highlight the despair element in your write,
      allows for a more meaningful reading experience,
      thanks for choosing to share

      • Lyriclitty

        Thanks but the multiple copies was accidental and I was not looking to evoke despair … that’s good to hear your perception although I was more so of desperate determination to just figure the shit out lol . It ended on a hopeful note I thought but thanks for your feedback highly appreciated it ❤️

      • Floreann

        One excellent write deep with emotion..

        • Lyriclitty

          🙏 thank you so much 😊

        • jayb_garang

          My hope is that you find it

          • Lyriclitty

            Thank you 🙏



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