Pouring libations from my eyes
In remembrance of the past
From where I came from:
Painful humbling beginnings
To where I want to be :
Unbreakable strength and self healed
To where I am :
Struggling to find out who I am where I belong and what is spiritual truth
These are all totally different places
I hold sentiment in the present moment as I reflect upon these changes
Diagnosed mentally unstable
I yearn to break the label
Gain health of mind
To show I’m abled
Sedation by medication 💊
To bate down my emotional disturbances
Just cause me to long to be released
I dare not stop swallowing them though
The uncensored rollercoaster of my mind will be unleashed and I destroy everything I cross without memory in hindsight is my unrelenting fear 😨
The most perilous and scariest truth is that some whole experiences are absent
What sense is this
How do I transcend this ailment
I don’t want a pacifier I need the cure
Red pill blue bill pharmaceutical Russian roulette
I’d rather take the red pill and know life changing truth
Than to be contented in ignorance with the blue pill
I bet there is weed in the red pill lol
I have intuition that natural medicine is the only way to treat it
I just got to find out how to do it
Pouring libations from my eyes
In remembrance of the past
From where I came from:
Painful humbling beginnings
To where I want to be :
Unbreakable strength and self healed
To where I am :
Struggling to find out who I am where I belong and what is spiritual truth
These are all totally different places
I hold sentiment in the present moment as I reflect upon these changes
Diagnosed mentally unstable
I yearn to break the label
Gain health of mind
To show I’m abled
Sedation by medication 💊
To bate down my emotional disturbances
Just cause me to long to be released
I dare not stop swallowing them though
The uncensored rollercoaster of my mind will be unleashed and I destroy everything I cross without memory in hindsight is my unrelenting fear 😨
The most perilous and scariest truth is that some whole experiences are absent
What sense is this
How do I transcend this ailment
I don’t want a pacifier I need the cure
Red pill blue bill pharmaceutical Russian roulette
I’d rather take the red pill and know life changing truth
Than to be contented in ignorance with the blue pill
I bet there is weed in the red pill lol
I have intuition that natural medicine is the only way to treat it
I just got to find out how to do it
Pouring libations from my eyes
In remembrance of the past
From where I came from:
Painful humbling beginnings
To where I want to be :
Unbreakable strength and self healed
To where I am :
Struggling to find out who I am where I belong and what is spiritual truth
These are all totally different places
I hold sentiment in the present moment as I reflect upon these changes
Diagnosed mentally unstable
I yearn to break the label
Gain health of mind
To show I’m abled
Sedation by medication 💊
To bate down my emotional disturbances
Just cause me to long to be released
I dare not stop swallowing them though
The uncensored rollercoaster of my mind will be unleashed and I destroy everything I cross without memory in hindsight is my unrelenting fear 😨
The most perilous and scariest truth is that some whole experiences are absent
What sense is this
How do I transcend this ailment
I don’t want a pacifier I need the cure
Red pill blue bill pharmaceutical Russian roulette
I’d rather take the red pill and know life changing truth
Than to be contented in ignorance with the blue pill
I bet there is weed in the red pill lol
I have intuition that natural medicine is the only way to treat it
I just got to find out how to do it
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Author:
Mi’Shila Jewel Vickers (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: October 21st, 2021 20:25
- Comment from author about the poem: My struggle with mental health
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Comments4
You have penned your emotions very well and very poetic.Take this route and all the problems will go away.Use your talent to gain health
Thank you I appreciate your encouragement, and also for taking the time to acknowledge my work ❤️
I like your use of repetition, to highlight the despair element in your write,
allows for a more meaningful reading experience,
thanks for choosing to share
Thanks but the multiple copies was accidental and I was not looking to evoke despair … that’s good to hear your perception although I was more so of desperate determination to just figure the shit out lol . It ended on a hopeful note I thought but thanks for your feedback highly appreciated it ❤️
One excellent write deep with emotion..
🙏 thank you so much 😊
My hope is that you find it
Thank you 🙏
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