Trapped in My Mind

Why do I feel so trapped in my mind?

Why do I feel that the world would be better off if I died?

Why do I feel like I’ll never be enough?

Why do I feel that I’ll never be loved?

 

My conscience fucks me around

I don’t want to die, I’m longing to feel very alive

Holding on to memories of laughter, enchantment and delight

Wondering if I’ll ever win this fight?

Will I ever have a happy ever after?

 

I can’t recollect the last time I felt truly blessed

I lost sight of what was realistic

For many years my mind has left me believing that I’m possessed

I feel incredibly pessimistic

 

 

I just crave for a life where I feel adored

I wish I wasn’t drowning in my mind

I hope all my happiness and faith can be restored

I wish depression wasn’t so unkind.