Simple relationship

It was a simple relationship that ended before it began 

Years of a strong friendship quickly turned as soft as sand 

We loved each other but I wasn't in love

I have never had that feeling in my heart for anyone 

The intrusion of her feelings caused amusement without meaning 

I'm not mean but I'm seeing how dark my heart is

I can't help that all my life my emotions have been atrocious

Can you blame me though for the way that I am

Raised only by my mother and having 3 brothers and my father wasn't around

I had no choice but to be tough and not show any weakness 

You seen tears in my eyes bullshit don't believe it

I haven't cried in years and probably won't for many more

That is weakness I can't deal with no matter how sore 

The emotions and feelings have run to the dark side

Keeping my black heart up front and pushing the goodness to hide

We loved each other but I wasn't in love a lot of things to blame but there was only one reason

We cheated on each other's hearts so I guess that makes us even