Fake friends

 Feeling lost in the ocean of people, not alone, yet truly alone

Where have the people gone, just walking through

Not sure where to go

Telling myself I will find them, yet always still roam

Not knowing which corner will lead me home

Not knowing where home is, in my mind I am stuck

  Looking for a hand, any hand

Someone to pull me out of this rut

all hands have left, Calvary quit 

My candle once bright now barely lit

The air leaves my lungs, strength weakens

A friend is what I am seeking

  All of you gone, moved on

So alone I listen to my sad songs

 Leaving me in the background as though there is no room

That's fine, I will pick up my love, loyalty, attention and give you all my doom

The pain, all the struggles

The nights I needed a body, anyone's to snuggle

All the times I felt I didn't matter

I will take all that pain, all that suffering and I will rise

I will become your mad hatter

Your life in my hands will not be safe

For all the times you made me feel unwanted

My rage will be your fate