Teddy.15

In My Eyes

 

 

He brought the very worst out of me

I didn't even own my own heart anymore

 

 

When I looked in the mirror 

I’d have to look twice 

 

 

I just didn't recognize “me”

My smile was ripped into shreds

 

 

I could see it

In the reflection of my own eyes

 

In a mirror

 

That I simply didn’t want to believe

 

 

My personality ravaged 

By a man, who didn't care for anything 

Or anyone but himself 

 

 

One day I decided

To take my ripped shredded smile

 

 

From within the deepest part

Of my sad broken eyes

And put it back on my face

 

 

After all, a real smile is worth everything?

 

And so was the  sparkle  

 

 

Good bye to the worst love of my life 

 

 

Anyone who knew me then

And knows me now

 

Will tell you

 

 

That even after twenty-five years

Whenever I think about this one love

 It still makes my blood boil  

Hatred still burns

 

I sank like

One of those beautiful crystal chandelier’s  

On the Titanic 

 

 

The day I found the courage to leave him

 

No feelings, just numbness…

 

 

My beauty and my wounded heart

 

Absent without leave

 

 

And for the reader who wonders…

 

Why I write about him

Or even give him recognition today?

 

 

I don’t, I write for me

 

And here's why…

 

 

A love worth sharing  

 

Isn’t worth sharing with anyone

 

Who is utterly blinded by their own egotism. 

Comments11

  • yellowrose

    So true ! We are so worthy and do not deserve to be treated as less by anybody . When people are wrapped up in their ego … then that’s all they do , they think about themselves disregarding the others feelings

    Your writing is expressive and some beautiful words in it too , especially about the sparkle and writing for yourself . πŸ™‚πŸŒΈ

    • Teddy.15

      Hello dearest Rose, thank you so much for your very kind words, I'm honoured you are.here.on my page. πŸ’–

      • yellowrose

        🌸 I know it’s not nice to be treated like you are less than . I’ve been treated as less than before and it can really affect how you feel , especially if you are already insecure .

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      • Neville


        well said my friend .. you are so much better off and stronger now than before .... and just in case you know his address, I still know a good hitman ................. well writ too I must add .................... Neville x

        • Teddy.15

          LOL no need I'm well over it, but will keep you in mind for the future 🀣 thank you governor!

        • Fay Slimm.

          Strong and determined to keep in mind that all love is not the same - the day you empowered yourself again is celebrated in this rant against egoism - and you tell it well dear Teddy.

          • Teddy.15

            Thank you, I think Neville can take some Credit for this one as it was.on reading his post today that set me.off once again down memory lane. thank you dearest Fay πŸ’–

          • dusk arising

            OOh a bit cutting in that final line. But yes.... love aint for sharing other than between two people.

            I'm reading the result of a big lesson learned aren't I. Amazingly attractive flambouyant people are very attractive and get loads of attention, loads of temptations and are best well avoided where one's heart is concerned..... so shun me!

            • Teddy.15

              We all have our faults, but when I was treated like I was completely transparent I had to actually teach a life lesson the him. And it worked, because I never ever put up with anyone else.like that, and I believe he still does that today. He's going on 60 years old a sad thing in my heart to know. Thank you dusky we also always have time to change and grow for the better right? Unless we choose to stay as.we are. πŸ’“

            • Paul Bell

              There's hate, and there's bloody hate.
              Sadly, they'll be some other poor woman looking in that mirror now.

              • Teddy.15

                Sure and well observed Paul, but we can only help ourselves, I'm sure he will end up alone in the worst sense of the word, but I have moved on and it's been many years now. Once bitten by love did it for me. Thank you for your empathy dear friend. πŸ’–

              • orchidee

                A thoughtful write Teddy.

                • Teddy.15

                  thank you so much Orchi. xxxx

                • Lorna

                  Good riddance to bad rubbish is the phrase that comes to mind.... something tells me that you had too much patience for too long Teddy - glad you vented with us.

                  • Teddy.15

                    Yes i did, and I also have that saying too. We can all be blinded by love but not treated like an unwanted dog. Thank you dear Lorna. πŸ’–

                  • Garth Rakumakoe

                    A slap on the right face, this is! One that deserves it. One that reclaims its dignity. Written straight from the bosom of a fearless brave heart. Kudos your courage sister. A favorite.

                    • Teddy.15

                      Thank you so much Garth, it's one of the reasons I so love the topic of love. I survived to share.my little.bit of wisdom. πŸ’–

                    • Accidental Poet

                      You're describing my ex-brother-in-law. Would not surprise me Teddy that we're talking of the one and same... person? Person is too good a word for him. Slimeball is more accurate. He is evil and the only love he knows is that for himself. He uses everyone for his own amusement and benefit. If he angered you, he smiles at his own ability to manipulate others and is the only source of pride he knows.
                      Your Angels blessed you in removing him from your life. Go you, Teddy. πŸ‘

                      • Teddy.15

                        A.P!!!! So wonderful to see you great buddy, yes I'm sure many of us know someone like him, actually believe it or not I too have a brother-in-law like that I always tell his girlfriend's they have a lucky escape. True story. Thank you so much for coming by, you are so missed. I hope your naughty muse comes back from the Caribbean
                        Where he has been enjoying a hot sunny holiday. Hugs galore this evening dear friend. πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—

                        • Accidental Poet

                          What I'd like to know is why I'm here and he/she isn't. πŸ€”

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                        • spilleronsheet

                          How courageous of you to speak dear Teddy….
                          So emotive and such a powerful message to grow over the wounded heart and evolve into a butterfly of self love
                          Loved the metamorphosis you wove

                          • Teddy.15

                            Thank you dear Spills, it's my first love, so I feel lucky I had the courage to accept that wasn't the true love I was expecting, I moved on with a vase and a plant in hand to better. Thank you, sometimes I write about it, because I am sure if I wasn't so strong as I was, I could have died. And that's why I write about it on occasion. Love can be the most wonderful experience and it can make you want to jump off of a cliff. Albeit one of my favourite subjects. Thank you dear friend. πŸ’–

                            • spilleronsheet

                              Plunge with strength that you do my dear friend
                              May life be filled with loads of love and happiness
                              Each moment be sweet as honey my dear Teddy

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                            • Goldfinch60

                              Powerful emotive words Teddy. You have moved on now into a better life and all will be well forever.

                              Andy

                              • Teddy.15

                                Thank you my dear friend, πŸ’–



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