fading scars are more of a trigger than setting a blade in front of me.
the scars that have proven my self worth for months on end, are leaving me.
and my sense of identity leaves with them.
i can’t help but want to add more, more lines to my pale scarred thighs.
just so i could see the red substance pour from the wound i created.
just so i could feel something again.
i just need to feel.
i can’t keep going through the motions with no feeling or emotion.
its killing me…
its making me want to cut over the fading scars that are placed strategically across my arm and legs,
ruin the progress i’ve made,
just to relapse with whatever i can get my hands on.
my scars are always what gets to me.
forcing me to no longer have cuts that are healing,
but cuts that are bleeding…
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Author:
razlin (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: i’ve struggled with self harm for some time now and i still can’t seem to get it under control. its an addiction that i never stop craving. but it causes a world of hurt for you and the people around you. i know that its not something you want to hear but if you are struggling with self harm or suicidal thoughts please reach out to someone and talk. you never know where those thoughts could lead you. please feel free to reach out to me if you are struggling. with anything. i’m always here to talk. no matter what time it is. i’m here.
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I read the comments , didn’t read the poem completely … but I’m sorry your in pain and maybe you could find someone to help you with how you feel .
Take care
firstly, thank you for the conscientious 🔞
and for wording your struggles
so thoroughly transparent..
I'm so tired of people
using self harming
as sensationalist imagery
for their self-aggrandizing
nihilistic poetry..
But, when someone
genuinely words such sincere
lines of excruciating anxiety
and strife,
we can only praise you
for your bravery!
'in my humble opinion..
(thank you for choosing to share
and just fyi
I always try to include info on possible helplines
and sources of advise
if I write words that may trigger people into seeking help for themselves
make their first step, that little easier to realise and grasp)
( https://www.therapyroute.com/article/helplines-suicide-hotlines-and-crisis-lines-from-around-the-world )
(
https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/self-harm/useful-contacts/ )
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