HLT (Hit Like Thunder)

Oh these words hit like thunder. Can feel the intensity through my bones. Oh how these words hit like thunder. Can feel the shaking from inside my body. Oh these words hit like thunder. Can feel the sensation of trepidation throughout my skin. Oh these memories are like lightning. Quick, bright and fierce like lightning. They strike over and over again. They strike at anytime. And they don't care where you are or how your day is going. When they strike, you burn inside and out, burn top to bottom. Memories so strong they strike you down like lightning.

I need to cry like the Earth needs rain.  Got to let this out like how crops need rain. It seems like I'm about to cry. It looks as though it will rain but it doesn't rain and crops suffer. I try to cry but nothing comes out, it's all trapped and like the crops I suffer. My face needs a downpour of tears like how crops need a downpour of rain. Damn I don't have anybody. But damn I need somebody. Damn I am all alone. But damn I don't want to be alone.  Want to have somebody. Tired of waking up alone. Tired of not being understood. Want someone who gets me, someone who doesn't misunderstand me. Want somebody to hold and that wants to hold me back. Somebody who wants to grow together, someone to build a family with. Even us howling lone wolves desire companionship.

Tired of seeing everyone else in positions I desire to be in. But damn what can you do when life has not favored you!? Damn I have nobody. Damn I feel like a nobody. I'm on this island all alone. How can you be surrounded by all that you've come to know and still feel alone? They hear you but don't listen. They tell you how to handle a struggle they don't have. They dare give you solutions to an issue they don't even bother to truly understand. Just want to go away and crawl into the corner of the world. Oh damn maybe I shouldn't have anybody, best to be alone. No point in having anybody if they chase you to isolation.

Oh how these words hit like thunder. Can feel the sensation of trepidation throughout my skin. Can feel the shaking of the inside of my body. Memories so strong they strike you down like lightning. They strike at anytime. They strike over and over again. And they don't care where you are or how your day is going. When they strike, you burn inside and out, burn top to bottom. Quick bright and fierce like lightning. Oh how these memories are like lightning. Can feel the intensity through my bones. Oh these words hit like thunder.