The shrink

So the winds have turned cold and the sky has turned grey,

The sunshine subsides, a storms on its way.

'How does it feel?' he asked as he may

'How do you feel at the start of the day?'

'To think, to feel, to understand; 

such privilege slips through my hands.

I don't know how to tell you it seems...

my insight has been masked by the darkness it brings.

I'm shrouded in loss, Im drowning in fear,

a state of confusion is increasingly near

Though I really don't care, I couldn't care less,

I know it has already taken my best.

I've dropped to my knees,

I failed the test, now there is a huge void in my chest.

It sinks as I acknowledge it into my stomach, 

it renders me so sad my heart will then plummet.

I'll embrace the numbness, I'll patiently wait

but I don't care if it takes me away.

My life has no meaning, too many don't care

this world is so lost, I'm full of despair.

I've got no friends left, I've pushed them away...

I feel so lonely at the start of the day.

I know I'm not wanted, I wouldn't be missed

I want to step off and fall into an abyss

I'll close my eyes, relinquish my hold,

then I will wait for my blood to run cold.

I'm not desperate, I no longer try

I just don't care if I live or I die'

''You are right'' he exclaimed, after a pause'

Too few care and the world is off course,

Your anger and frustration has turned to pain,

you are getting crazy, going insane.

Nobody listens, nobody knows

how to reach out or how to disclose

They don't know what to do, don't know what to say

but you built the wall that stands in your way

Our world is fickle and very unjust

but it's your perception that you shouldn't trust.

Deception of truths and rash judgment will follow

You are seeking one to shelter you from sorrow

They will not come, they will not proclaim

and you will always feel the same

Though there is one that you forgot to mention

Someone who can assist in your ascension

Someone that is brave, smart and so true

That person, my friend has always been you

You are so much more beautiful than you know

and you've still got so much room to grow

The system is sick, society all wrong

It is not the world in which you belong

But the world in your head can be as you want it to be

Your eyes will see what you want them to see

Reject the standards set by the fools

replace them with morals and make your own rules

To deny yourself is such a shame

you need to fall in love with yourself again

Then you will see, then you will know

you lost yourself a long time ago

Your mind is your own, no one can enter

make it a fortress with you at the centre

Laugh at your own jokes, be true to your heart
tear all that self-destruction apart

Reject the bad and welcome the new,  
you need no one, you've always had you.