Life and death

I loved you more.

I gave foolishly.

You left us to our own devices.

This is not my state, it's your fate.

I learned I was fine when time came around and shook me.

I had this precious gift.

She filled my days and nights.

I still wanted you.

She made me laugh and sigh.

She wanted to know where her daddy was;

I said you were working.

She n' I rode bikes n' scooters n' walked our dog together.

She n' I covered the driveway with funky, psychedelic flowers & hop scotch & butterflies

Using big colored chalk. We even swam in our pool.

I still wanted you.

I raked leaves in to big piles - she n' I ran full steam ahead- jumped in n' laughed till we cried.

I took her to so many Disney movies and play dates too.

She loved to play with pill bugs n' gave em names n' homes in shoe boxes-

Made of grass n' leaves n' tiny stones.

I helped her with her homework and drove carpool.

She was my solace, you know.

On all those empty nights- she still asked where her daddy was;

I lied and said working.

My baby and I had a beautiful life.

I can't change point or place.

I feel haggard.

I'm so tired.

I don't want you.

She comes to mind.

I'm no fool.

You have such audacity.

You want me?

I don't love you anymore.

Not like that.

I'm not sure what happened.

I'm left in outfield -wandering there

Hanging on to my bottle of wine.

Guess I'll be fine...

Till I wake again n' realize

I don't want you.

She's not here.

And neither were you...

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