I’m mad

I’m mad

I’m mad because you did it all behind my back

You didn’t cheat

But you planned another life without me

I’m mad

I’m mad because you arranged a house

You told me nothing

You had me believing you still loved me unconditionally

I’m mad

I’m mad because I noticed things changing

But I didn’t understand

You had things moved out already before saying a word

I’m mad

I’m mad because it’d had been organised since the argument you walked out

I couldn’t fight for you

But you made me do it anyway

I’m mad

I’m mad because you put on a mask and lied to me for weeks

But no care

Or regard for how you actually made me feel

I’m mad

I’m mad because I told you I was grateful

You don’t deserve that

I’m grateful I used the pain to push myself to change

I’m mad

I’m mad because you don’t even care about the cats

They’re your boys

Not seeing them for weeks and now you want to take one for yourself

I’m mad

I’m just really fucking mad

I hope you understand

I hope you can realise how brutal you have been

I’m mad

I’m really mad that I can’t let you go

The love I have

It hurts every single day