Control

‘As the nights get longer everything starts to set in. I would say the good and the bad but then I would be lying.

A lot of bad weeps through. My inner thoughts become overwhelmed as I’m trying to control my emotions on the outside. I am no longer in control at this point. My mind, my heart, my emotions, my soul; I’m lost on the inside.

Everything’s at a lost estate. Im no longer me. Im not alive. I can’t break this barrier. That thought frightens me. As my thoughts race through scenes of possibilities they become blocked by fear. It’s always a scary ending in my head. I can’t see the light.’

I want more positivity in my life,  these negative feelings are consuming me; mentally and physically. Eventually, that’ll be all that’s left of me.

This isn’t what I want in life. I fight, I survive. I’m gonna make things right, fuck this barrier give me a flashlight.

I’m climbing out of this cave, I’m choosing a different path because I’m the only one who can change my ways.