DO YOU EVER LOOK AROUND

 

while i journey through my path i feel blind

as i walk with my shadow through life it seems fine

the joy of knowing who u are is worth more than a buzz

the ups in life seem more important than they ever was

downs are the usual schedule for most folks where im from

i continue to fall down more and more but i always run

trying to slow down my pace with this bewildered look on my face

in a place with no real finish line but we all race

we all wanna win somethin feels good when you can spend somethin

but at what cost when the cost of item to make took much of nothin

i ask myself everyday am i the right one to fight this 

then i scuffle for the tobacco and weed to light it

my psyche is becoming more than what i see in current situations 

and with the currents of the waves i see the ocean of life changin

people don't understand u they just assume with their own perception

lookin for a plan b in my life but not contraception

i conjured up my other self this is astral projection

im flying above who i am at the moment

im gaining momentum but im losing traction on this road

im building myself up physically but more focus on the physics of my soul

i see what i think i am but bothered from the outside world

i hide myself from myself but slowly my secrets unfurl

falling from myself constantly but trying to hang on

i open the door for opportunity but they dont stay long

is this anybody or am i alone with these words written

i said goodbye to today, man how the morning seems distant

what does tomorrow have in store for a indecisive soul

will there be sorrow, wishing i could borrow some joy i could hold

maybe for a little bit what is joy anyway can yall answer that

what if we only have joy temporarily forever could yall handle that 

i guess its what were use to the unusual is now usual

we are all dancing together in life but there is no musical

no music is playing at all but we still get involved

we just go in circles to make the world revolve 

lost souls and lost causes just because

or maybe a definitive "it is what it is"

is it really what it is or do we just up and give in

i wrote this longer to guide me and you to become stronger

my thoughts linger on this page to strengthen me to be more humble

Discovering myself more realizing my inner me

oblivious in my remote location but channeling my energy

not doubting the inevitable but more so to not stress and let it go

completing my seasons not fast forwarding my episodes

i love you momma and i miss you wishing you was here i would kiss you

needing words of encouragement and some uplifting

i know you hear me my physical is to much to stand at times but i know you stand with me

i could of wrote this on a plane i could of manifested this on a train

could of wrote this in a park with moonlight or jotted it down in the rain

i just wanna stay sane i ask the higher power for higher power

for my mental to get through anything and not let let downs devour

im losing time as im lost in these 24 hours

i never needed you to understand i never beg for a helping hand

i just wanted the knowledge of if i fall i would have somewhere to land

i guess i will land on my own accord is this perception once again

high in the clouds with these vowels but can i be blunt again

reluctant to absorb energy from others who are unconscious

but somehow fortified with instructions from my subconscious

how will my book end god i wish it was fair to ask

i know my life was already written for me im just trying to fill in the paragraphs

and the chapters that repeat themselves constantly

and try to live my life with rapture dominantly

continuously searching for the pattern in this merry go

wrapped up in such and such while doing so and so

while exerting my beliefs in a climate thats unbelievable

did you feel that one are you introverted with a voice to be heard

are we part of this melting pot just waiting to be stirred