Who am i

I’m sitting my car watching the sunset over the trees as it reflects off the water

The last rays of the day are always so beautifully hypnotizing 

I lose myself watching them move forward with every day peacefully

The water rippling with every breeze disrupting the beautiful reflection 

The reflection wasn’t ruined though it was only temporary

The beauty is always there even if you can’t always see it

I’m always lost in the beauty of nature 

Natures beauty always makes me feel so reflective

Sometimes I wish I could see half the beauty I see in nature in myself

It’s always so easy to see the beauty in other things 

It’s almost hypnotic seeing the beauty that you are surrounded by

But I always circle back to thoughts of doubt towards myself

Not thinking I’m enough

Thinking I’m too much

Always feeling like a burden

Do you think that if nature were to think as we do…

To have the self awareness that we do…

That it would have the same thoughts as we do.

Would the beauty we see be seen by itself as a flaw

Imperfection is beauty and yet we strive for perfection

Perfection is a wish of acceptance

Imperfection is beautiful but not wanted

I wish I could view my imperfections as I view nature

Maybe I should compare my imperfections to nature so that I may see my own beauty

Sometimes I see it but sometimes it’s gone

It’s so much easier to see the beauty in others than it is in ourselves