Liquid Pain

Loud Music... Overwhelming thoughts...
Cluttered mind... My brain rots...
Forever leading myself down the rabbit hole,
Spinning like a friction-less ball.
Gripping the roots of my soul,
I know in my heart that I must stand tall.

Drinking poison,
Living suppression.
Altering my way of thinking,
Sinking emotion deep into the abyss.
Why am I constantly running?
Hating my regrets every time they kiss.

Falling,
Bleeding.
Reaching,
Helplessness.

In the darkest room I see myself,
A reflection of my other half.
Placing my purity on a distant shelf,
Lecturing me with empty words.
Silent voices speaking without remorse,
Splitting my head into bloody shards.

Pain,
Relentless aching.
Suffering,
Damnation.

Testing deaths limit,
My ruptured heart.
JUST HIT IT!
This agony I permit.
Persistent, holding my patience,
Weighing me down by rejecting my success.

Living through the struggle,
Sleeping on unwanted love.
This isn't what I asked for,
Flooded with tainted blood.
Why is life so sore?
I should leave for good!

Why can't I come back?
A faithless wreck!
Emotional suppression...
Selfless Sadism...

Hateful justification.