with you

you found me

hiding out 

beneath tissue and layers

of bad gags,

not bagged gifts

frozen

stilled in terror 

that life was going

to kick my feet out from under me

and knock the wind from my lungs,

then laugh. 

you found me

and I was never the same

as then 

when you grappled my demons,

pulled me down

under your covers,

pried out my secrets

made me laugh

like incoherent

and innocent and 

alive again,

under your spell-

under you

with the weight of

nothing but love

as a force field

holding me down,

holding me with bliss

and I was never the same.