My Own Worse Enemy

All des years I felt like da devil was out to get me

Not even knowing I was da devil, my own worse enemy

Tossing n turning brain on overload can’t sleep at night

Mind racing feet pacing thinking da devil bout to win dis fight

Wanting to give up but I can’t cause wat about my babies

Who gone be da village to raise dem since we’re no longer in da 80s

My girls my world who gone love dem like dey mommy

Absolutely nobody yes I said it absolutely nobody honey

Drinking n smoking gambling every chance I get tryna ease da pain

Sunny days 20% of da time da other 80 just rain

Stressed depressed n past trauma coming back to haunt me

Or maybe it’s da replays of dem grown ass men tryna hunch me

U know dat really scarred my soul fa life n u don’t even care

Crushed my spirit n took my innocence boy life just ain’t bn fair

Black sheep of da family but dey say it ain’t so

And got da nerve to say I’m crazy as if dey don’t know

Y is it so easy to be my own worse enemy u ask

Put yourself in my shoes n try to complete da task

So much hurt n anger deep down in my soul

Yet I walk around at times with my head held high acting all mighty n bold

But deep down inside I’m screaming Lord help me please

Cuz being my own worse enemy is like being stung a million times by bees