anxiety

you forget where it started
you don't know where it will end

you're trapped in a tunnel that simultaneously narrows and w i d e n s

your awareness narrows

while your thoughts w i d e n
until they lose all sense

one thought careens into another

snowball effect

until your mind threatens to collapse under the weight

it is all you can do to push back against it

you are the sisyphus of your own mythos, forever condemned to fighting an uphill battle with your heavy, leaden thoughts

nearly reaching the top
where you could finally release the weight

where you could finally rest

only to fall right back to the start

and begin the struggle again