Have you

Have you ever been homeless ?

you ever been kicked out

i ain’t been kicked out

but i’ve been homeless

fuck that i am homeless 

i’m couch surfing 

on my knees praying to the man upstairs for a purpose of this pain i’m going through 

a reason for the grief i’m holding onto

truth is 

if you had seen what i’ve seen you’d won’t believe 

i’m only 19 

at 16 had a gun on my hip

every night i was high

i was 16 doing grown shit 

16 but in my mind i was 25

asking jehova why i had this kind of life

that day i saw the pain i brought to my mothers eyes

pain in these poetic lines

16 my brother had a different life

i was tryna fuck a prep bitch to see what that life like

16 i had to prep shit skimming the .5’s

16 bronem gave me pills for nickels and dimes

16 life flashed before my eyes once i saw that hollow tip 

never had a job in my life till i was 18

dropped out in grade 9

always learned how to come by

for that money 

i never knew had to live life 

only learned how to survive 

everybody got a sad story 

just tryna tell mine

not even poetry no more i’m just venting on these lines 

so tell me 

you ever been homeless 

that tent where i used to say home is

so tell me 

you ever been homeless 

friends kitchen where my lunch is