Reconnection

Almost 25 years I been on this planet.

25 years ago my parents met had me but they did not plan it.

Been knocked on my behind since I was born, I’m still on the ground but at the momentI stand in it! 

I lived far from my home in my case I have many. 

To those I love, I love still no matter where this path will send me. 

I certainly do not control at least I do not try  to. 

But I notice certain things without your effort will pass by you. 

Mind over matter I try a little more but my heart hurts a little more lost a little pride but a little courage is what I gathered.

I been cheated, laughed at, punched and mocked. 

Pain like all things is temporary the most important lesson I have been taught. 

Though I still get thoughts if I had all the power in the world, I would grab those who wronged me and show them their true selves and watch they’re souls rot.

I need to let go of attachment to people, objects and emotion. 

All is temporary though I try to let go and my heart causes commotion. 

I still think about women breaking the old me.

I still care how they’re doing in my dreams we sat talked and their things you haven’t  told me.

Why am I still looked down upon though I evolved eminently. 

I rather be alone than in bad company. 

New year same questions just more in depth.

New me but still stressed but not discouraged just yet still counting blessings in the dark try harder even when I try my best.