I miss who I was....

I miss who I was before love ruined my heart. 

I miss who I was before people tore me apart. 

I miss who I was before my dad died even if that girl was distraught inside. 

I miss who I was before I lost my little pride that helped me keep my head up and walk in even strides. 

I miss who I was before my voice disappeared and nobody could see all the pain I feel. 

I miss being special and feeling love that nobody could take away.

now I just want an empty heart that never feels a thing. 

I miss who I was and that girl is no more, I'm way too run down and I'm too tired and hurt to care what I've turned into now. 

And does it really matter, cause I've already been ripped to shreds and it's harder everyday to not want to be dead. 

Yea I miss who I was she was stronger than me now all that's left is the weakness that breathes. 

I blame no-one but myself bc I allowed all that pain, I allowed the 'friends' to pick at my brain. Being nice is not worth it having friends is not fun and love...  Love fucks you no matter what you do, bc I'm slowly learning no one can ever love you more than you.