Te'amo

I remember that night we spent by the lake
What I thought was you it was really a snake 
How much of it did he really fake?
How much of me would he really take?
For you i tried not to break, just continued to bend
I kept all your secrets so we could play pretend

He withheld his love from me often,
He told me today I get no kisses, 
He did this so id cry
Just so id be more submissive

He holds me tight but tells me the way I feels not right
So he pauses then, to tell me to relax
Than he starts touching me till my hearts beating to the max
When he tells me to control myself,
He listens closely to my breath
It scares me that I know this, 
It sends chills down my neck

He'd tell me no matter what,
To be honest and true
But than he mentions colors to me
Black and blue

The first night we met you said it was meant to be," Its our fate, My love, Our destiny "
When you lose control, I see the desperation 
I start to see all your anger, and built up frustrations
He takes it out on me and tells me "I am temptation"

When you do these things to me you always call it affection, but whenever I want you 
"Im a bad girl" and get rejection 

Those long walks we took when you should've been next to me,
You were always right behind my shoulder 
When we walked like this
Those nights always felt so much colder

I don't know why he likes to see me in pain
Why when he tells me he loves me, it feels more like disdain 

In his eyes
He was wise
I was bad

You told me this all the time that night i got so mad,
You said for the both of us to stick to what we know
On the patio of that restaurant that night I put on a big show 
I cant believe I'm on my knee again, begging you not to go

I write all these words, but they do us no justice
You never once stopped calling me A Bad girl,
An I'm way to seductive
You said i was "The girl" to your friends
Yet all my ways are vice?
The girl who showed up at your door,
Dressed ready to entice
You remember when you whispered in my ear,
You asked me "what's your price"

You say you wish you could take it back
Cause you feel like you made things how they are 

In custody,
you wont look me in my eyes
Look at where we are babe,
Did it really come as surprise?