Live To Die

Cheyenne Smith

Did pain choose me or did I choose pain?

Why do I never really feel grateful and content with everything I own, everything I present & everything I earn

 

Am I just a selfish person or am I reasonable?

They do say that people are rarely satisfied with what they have but why exactly is that?

We think things that will improve who we are and finally we’ll feel content in our own skin

 

After working on and adapting aspects of my life along with getting where I thought I wanted to be; I realise how I’m still not happy. Very few people in my life are people I actually cherish

Although I have these people, I often feel extremely alone.

 

Where do I belong?

I have worked so hard to get where I am yet I still struggle to feel captivated

 

I fight demons on a daily basis and I occasionally come out on top but I cannot win this battle against any voice which enters my brain

Am I a bad person? Is the voice speaking the truth? Waiting for me to tie a noose

The voice that can at times infer that I’m better off dead you see.

 

I’m incredibly numb; everyone perceives me to be okay but is that only because I’m so good at portraying myself in that certain way?

 

What is the point in living when you hardly feel alive?

What is the point if we only live to die?

  • Author: Cheyenne Smith (Offline Offline)
  • Published: February 4th, 2022 06:14
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  • L. B. Mek

    questing for the right questions
    is the first step, in gripping
    a threshold moment
    to those corridors, of life
    where you're not just, walking
    towards a bleak horizon
    introspection
    sheds light, upon our mind's darkest
    thought's
    and by doing-so, gifts us an opportunity
    to find that glint of hope
    buried, beneath our shadows
    of doubt..
    so question! and pave your life' path
    to impenetrable: Worth!
    'sing loud: sing proud!'
    Fight, fight for your rewards
    in this fleetingly, wondrous life
    you're, currently sleep walking
    through...



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