No place I could be

This day
Feelings like the old
No place I could be
To bring a smile to this soul

I wish I were happy
I wish I felt love
I wish, how I wish
Death wasn’t on my mind

I know I could
Change my minds direction
From this pit I’ve been feeling
To my own resurrection 

God, why can’t I help it?
I keep pulling me down
I keep digging this hole
I keep, how I keep, blending my soul

I hope the day comes
Faster than soon
Where I fix my head
Where I sing the right tune

I’m broken in this moment
I’m broken in my heart
Please God help me see
Will I ever be the part?

I wish for love
Love of myself
Without loving me 
Can I love someone else?

Father oh father
This isn’t about you
But I think if you had been here
I wouldn’t have a loose screw