Shame On Me... {11th August 2021}

Well there's really nothing left to say...

I've got to go, I've got to get away...

There's no way I can stay...?

I've already been made a fool...

I've stood by you so tall, defended it all, & in return you've made me feel so unworthy, so small...

I haven't got much of me left at all...

There's nothing left to say...

I hope your happy with what you took & threw away...

I'm rack & ruin...

This is all you're doing...

While I cant sleep at night, your sleeping tight, relishing in delight, embracing you're well played fight...

You've took it all from me & I don't know why...?

I've got no dignity, no fight...

You had a cheek to tell me you love me still, After I've lost my will...

Behind my back you was dissing & hissing, looking & going after girls you' just don't know...

Girls you've never met...

So why you making me feel like a worthless whore...?

When this is your betrayal yet again... 

Are you smoking crack...?

Because what your doing to me really is whack...

Or is it smack...?

Please tell me its something you're on...?

Otherwise how am I suppose to forgive & forget...

All I truly know is that your looking for a fight,

I feel all your grievances coming my way every minute of everyday

You cant stand me, yet I still don't know what I've done...?

I wish you would just tell me instead of treating me like I'm no one...

Being so cruel, & mean...

Then a little nice, because you know you're wrong doing this to me...

It's not long just tell me the truth you no longer want to be with me...

Instead of fishing & putting blame out loud...

You're looking for things that I just don't do & haven't said to you... 

I suppose any excuse will do...

Everything you say I do is really truly you...

I'm not the mirror your looking in...

You've won...

Cant you see that someone who's me has become no one thanks to you...

The hurt, the pain, the crying, the shame...

I'm back out there walking alone again...

This is not what it should be for me...

I truly don't know what to do...?

There's nothing left, I can smell that coming of you... 

The dirty looks, The mumbles under your breath...

The distance you keep from me, the lies you tell...

You don't listen any more, you're always giving me what for...

Always showing me the door...

I've got the message, yes its clear to see, I'm sick of you hurting every part of me...

& I'm sick of loving you unconditionally...

I'm sick of the chances I keep giving you, clocking everything you say & do...

I feel that horrible vibe again...

When will I become strong...?

Not that you want of me...

I know I'm not in the wrong... 

I need To leave you well behind...

Met & mix with more good people such as myself, my kind

I haven't laughed in so long...

I need to laugh, its like having a bath...

I want so badly to hear laughter...

not be crying for a happy ever after....    

That doesn't exist especially with you...