Still dithering with hesitation on brink of abysmal precipice

Infinite pitch black void zoomed,

I vacillated then pitched headlong

(head and knobby knees, over heels)

where skeletons in shuttered closets roomed,
and antithesis of freedom loomed

large (think) cosmic size grand canyon groomed
courtesy the once mighty Mississippi,
now barely a babbling brook in places

 

espouses, and cloisters unbridled wedded bliss

till after honeymoon, than couple fumed

one accusing the other of infidelity
absolute zero witnessed crime of passion

lifeless bodies in shallow grave entombed

after violent retribution forensic experts

determine homicide after lovely bones exhumed

shotgun marriage from getgo doomed

structured sound of silence boomed.

 

Against the wishes of slumbering wife,
the following I nonetheless narrated,

to you how she temporarily held

yours truly check (mated),

thus eternal salvation sought
at healing waters of Lake Woebegone
repurposed conscious being

to experience sanguine mood linkedin

attending high school reunion

ridding hypocrisy, modesty,

and travesty initially I hibernated
away from madding crowd

once for all ascending

soul asylum gilded gated

 

stairway to heaven

consanguinity amidst deceased brethren

impossible mission to discern,

dawdling against inevitable fated

doom, thus I nevertheless equivocated

and bemoaned series of unfortunate events.

 

Daniel Handler an American writer and musician

best known for his children's series

A Series of Unfortunate Events

and All the Wrong Questions

Lemony Snicket honestly created

salvation blissfully, knowingly belated

and thankfully ameliorated.

 

At long last doomed existence
finally fancy free and footloose

Earthly afflictions divine creator

severe trials and tribulations let loose

promise body, mind and spirit triage

damn physical, mental, and

spiritual afflictions permanent vamoose

yoked Sisyphean and mephistophelean woe

summoning herculean strength
(mine) to vanquish

courtesy (halloo) gibbet welcome noose

necks stop outer limits analogous cooked goose.

 

Neither family nor scant friends twill mourn

severance outlook linkedin inextricably forlorn

accursed psychological agony since I got born

incessantly pilloried courtesy bullies hood scorn,

yours truly convenient scapegoat raked over hot coals

preferable versus insidious,
malicious, nefarious, opprobrious

querulous, ridiculous, salacious...

suffering post traumatic stress disorder wartorn

invisible battle scars branded me, yet well worn

shell shocked comfortably numbed skull
(just another brick in the wall)
jimmied heavily inebriated distilled, cracked corn

trumpet silenced (think) muted horn.

 

Anger at self wells up

regarding passive stance (mine)

convenient akin to jellyfish,

and/or crustaceans without spine

essentially a dorky nerdy wimpy kid

i.e. faulty genetic design

unsure if attributable to Capricorn zodiac sign

essentially allowed, enabled and provided

easy excellent access akin to scavengers to dine

bitter draughts synonymous quaffing quinine
bobble headed, I

meekly, grudgingly, admittedly opine

figuratively forced down gullet - nein
letup liberally heaped upon
courtesy 20/20 hindsight, a tangential pact

with Sue S. Side, promising starvation diet

package deal plus absent I, cant see

(now a tan - gent) unwittingly did cosign.