you can bring me up, right past the clouds 

but you can throw me down, right on the ground

i hate what you can do to me
i hate that you make it hard to breathe
i hate feeling ignored
like maybe i'm just your chore
i can't seem to pull away
i can't help wishing you would stay
you have the nerve to call me strange
i hate that i want to call you babe
you give me butterflies
then send them all away
and it's no surprise
but i'm still not ok
do you know how many times
i've told myself
you're not good for my health?
but i can't help but want you
i wish i didn't need you
but i do
i hate that i need you
you make it so hard to hate you
but you make it so easy to crave you
i know to you i'm just a toy
but you're still my favorite boy


Will i ever mean anything to you?
I don't want to be stuck here,
waiting on you to choose your girl
i don't want to be one of your options
i wish i could leave
but this love is blinding
you use me
you refuse me
do you abuse me?
but it doesn't matter
because i just want you to love me

i say i don't care
when you make fun of my hair
i play nonchalant
when you don't say goodbye
but if i'm being honest
it makes me want to cry
but i lie and say it doesn't matter
that you don't care
i pretend my heart doesn't shatter
when you're not there