Love

i lost myself in it, a day just as gloomy as yesterday was the first time i touched it. everything seemed off, until i poked it. i didn’t know it had been broken, mistreated, or under spoken. it wasn’t mine to touch so i stole it, held it close to me at all times so it never became broken. the first time it spoke to me my heart jolted. god must’ve handcrafted it with patience’s, carved each corner with caution and shaped it tender hearted. it smiled, sometimes i think past me but i couldn’t let go of this idea that it entrapped me. it was beautiful, like the night sky. it sparkled so bright it left my eyes almost blind. and then it made my mind numb, cut into my heart and left me there to bleed. my knees could no long hold up the weight that was me. and god if you made it why did you allow somebody to break it. if it wasn’t meant for me why didn’t it inform me, send a shock through my body to stop me. because i’m only as strong as the ground under me but the last person here left cracks large enough to swallow me. see god you lost me, when you sent me into the forest bound to an angel you knew wasn’t for me. and by the time i looked up it was gone, carried away by the wind on a brisk evening just as gloomy as the day i touched it. i saw it the other day, i went to say hi but my words were too loud for my own voice and it had company. but the smile company brought to it was brighter than its eyes and i never thought i’d say this but god why did you lie. because i’m standing here with cuts from the thorns you put on the roses. i see company paved over the holes that was there before me, company made your smile worth more than me, but company isn’t god. and god made love so company must be visiting from up the road. because i can’t let this idea go