Eternity?

N

I fell for his soul 

As I watched him unleash his true self

His pure, raw form

A very daunting moment

I couldn’t help but adore him

Vulnerability at its most

Yet powerful somehow

He showed me himself

His wounds, his flesh

His never-ending trail of thoughts

And I asked myself

Is this where he lives?

In a world full of demons and darkness

And I saw it in his eyes 

The pain he wanted to hide

I held his face in my hands

Through my glistening eyes, I said,

“No! Not anymore

Don’t hide from me, show me

Show me your scars

For I’ll do anything to heal those”

And he did show me

Without hesitation, I kissed his marks

For some reason, 

He seemed to heal a little

But only a little

I reminded him that we have an eternity

An eternity to heal those

With tears in his eyes

He held my hand

Pulled me close

And kissed my forehead

With pain in his eyes, he said,

“Maybe we don’t”

Quizzically, I looked at him

He added,

“I can’t bear to put you through hell

Through MY hell

I love you enough to make this world 

A better place 

For you, without me”

Just as I was about to protest

I staggered

He held me firmly

Planted a last kiss on my lips

He said “GOODBYE”

In the most heartbreaking tone

A goodbye that pierced my heart

Broke me into innumerable pieces

Maybe I didn’t deserve a fallen angel

Maybe I didn’t deserve an angel

Like him

He left me

And all I remember now

Is his smile and teary eyes

I’ll cherish him always

Always

A love, which was pure

Beautiful, but wasn’t meant to be

  • Author: Rosa Violet (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: March 8th, 2022 07:10
  • Comment from author about the poem: Sometimes, it's okay for people to leave I guess.
  • Category: Love
  • Views: 53
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  • Ivy Madara

    I felt my own heart break slightly as I read this, knowing the pain of losing yourself to love followed by the departure of that person from your life. Is there anything like eternity?

    • N

      Honestly, no. There's no such thing as "forever". Everything is transient. It's better to live in the present and enjoy every moment than think about an eternity. I guess that's why they say YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE. Live every moment.

    • Blackstar

      Humans, like him and i... we know our hell. You cannot bear enumerable physical scars... and not hold the same inside.

      When you are so afraid of being hurt, you shut the world out so that you never hurt them back. Only to compound your own pain, your own distrust. Things which can't be healed... only coped with.

      Sounds like it hurt you, yet hearing this offers another side... leaving to protect from pain causing it all the same. Feeling damned is still the appropriate term for ones like us...

      Fallen or not, that angel stands. I know well how they must feel. Even if only knowing we are both forever alone. With the obligation to carry, and never pass on the scars we never had a choice to wear.

      • N

        "Never pass on the scars we never had a choice to wear"
        THIS. I felt this deeply, having a scar myself. Scars might make us question ourselves but I believe it is what makes us beautiful and unique. Not having anyone to accept your flaws is perfectly alright if you've accepted yourself and love yourself. I believe the greatest love anyone would ever experience is self love. Nobody can love you the way you yourself can.

        God's light shines upon everyone. He just chooses the very strong and brave ones to suffer. But eventually, sufferings come to an end. Remember, if it does not make you happy, it is not the end.

        • Blackstar

          I would agree with much of that. Lost 70% of my skin in a fire ten years ago, it was indeed a defining moment even if dwarfed by others I have survived. I think a point comes when the uniqueness of the scars becomes more a distance than a wall... and like space, it\'s hard to get out of ones local group.

          It's how I see loneliness... not truly alone, just distance some of us are as rogue galaxies far far away

          • N

            I get you. But please know there are people who love you for who you are. Sometimes living in our little bubble causes us misery; I'd suggest getting out of that world. Get busy so that your thoughts won't eat you up.

            I mean it is crazy how our own thoughts can hurt us sometimes.

            Don't let yours hurt you...

            • Blackstar

              I'm of two minds. While I love and appreciate the optimism, there is the element of capacity. I myself have a degenerative central nervous system disorder cause by my mind hitting the high capacity of what it can hold for stress. I am a documented unethical human experiment, and though these don't heal and create a forever alone situation, it does not mean people are not there or I have no friends. I simply mean there are things one experiences which one can never share, they are unfathomable. And we are alone with them. I agree our thoughts can cause harm, memories as well. Yet a touch... can heal.

              • N

                "one experiences which one can never share, they are unfathomable. "
                I understand; completely do. Loneliness definitely hits in when you've so much in you, things you've never shared with anyone. Things probably no one deserves to know whatsoever.



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