things I wanted to say but never did

I never tell anyone goodnight, but when i tell you  i stay up an hour late incase you need me.

I always waited for you to be home just so i knew you were safe. But you? You never did. Now it’s 4am and i’m loosing sleep yet again.

And just so you know, except I probably wont tell you this, i know i’m hard to love, but i’m trying to change, because i know that i’m causing you pain. but ur not the only one in pain. promise one day, i wont be the same. the dead wilted flowers in me, will bloom after the rain. ik they will. they have to. and i appreciate you, more than you know.

yes, i’m still waiting. But i don’t think that i’ll be waiting for much more.