Tired

And how are we special if everything s the same,if nothing changed but it s still becoming deeper, quieter,sadder...
And we are thinking and hoping that today is better than yesterday but now we don t even wake up with hope we just wanna die
But if we tryna die,that requires a plan and what plan can we do If we can t even plan for today
So we just feel "tired",numb ,empty till feelings are just a way to explain that we don t actually feel
And now tell me how are we special if none of us are,if we are different but all the same because we end up in the same grave
But what if actually we just started digging for it is it gonna be an endless hole or we are gonna cover it with leafs waiting to fall again
Tell me how it feels to feel,from pain to love to anger to happiness... how it feels to feel alive even for a second
Cause now not even death has a feeling but seeing it making it s way through your body it s the only confirmation you re still alive
Or you can check that you re alive but that requires silver and red and you just escaped those scars of the past and you can t even starve cause it doesn t even hurt so it won't help
So now let s just exist and maybe someday we ll live,maybe someday we ll be whole again