My own prison

These walls are closing in on me. Day by day the same 4 walls hold me back, slowly suffocating me, depriving me of fresh air, freedom, happiness, love, sanity. Sadly these 4 walls I have built myself. Every self doubt, mistake, insecurity has slowly formed this concrete prison around my life. You may be instulitutionalized behind bars due to the justice system and past mistakes, but please tell me how its any better to lock yourself away in a world where you do all the right things, have your freedom, have a choice and still can't because you're so afraid of disappointing yourself or the one you love? This prison keeps me from my children, from the love of my life,  from my true self just as yours keeps you from yours. If you tried to escape your flesh would be ripped by barbed wired but if I try my flesh gets ripped by the pain in my own heart and hands. Both in prison. Both in hell. Both away from those who mean the most. Both did this to ourselves in one way or another. The only difference is one has bars, the other has firey walls of concrete.