Numb

I am cold 
I am broken
All i have is my will unshaken
Love and pain co exist
Giving my neck a twist
If i decide to feel it pushes people away
Its rare that they want to stay
I swallow my pride and put the mask back on
Become the thing they want me to be
Feels like i will never be free 
Trapped in a cage of guilt and anxiety
Pain is my friend because its what i know
This was the only thing i was shown
But do not fret i am used to it 
Blessed with the curse of intellect 
For i am not dumb but numb
Used because i choose not to feel 
Because the damage is far to real
I can not rest i can not sleep
I am a wolf bullied by sheep
The dragon who bites his own tale gains imortality 
But at the cost of his own sanity. 
What is wrong what is right all i now how to do is fight
I succeed but feel like i fail
Back to my dreams because its better than reality