LUST or LOVE

I'm afraid to do this
Many have walked away
For not dancing to their tunes
They frowned their faces
And tagged me, 'hard to get'.

I have held my purity
For decades,
But age is mocking at me
Many lust,
After my nkiruka and azuka.

Courtship, the altar of sacrifice
I have tried to make it work
But their tales
Are never at peace
With my rules.

From church to house
Here we are,
I'm a lamb
To be slaughtered
On the altar of his bed.

His eyes feast
On my dangling breasts
He craves to adore my thighs
Wishing to pour libation
In my temple.

Though I treasure him
But I'm afraid to let him in
He will dump me for another
How many has he slained
on this altar?

I'm afraid
After this sinful sacrifice
He will spit my shortcomings
Before my face,
And tell me how cheap I am
I won't let him have his way.

But rather,
I will quench his libido
By boosting his ego
His superego will mock him
Then, he will be my slave.

If his Id rules supreme
And angered lust roars
In his eyes,
I will give him foreplay
And cast out his animalistic desires.

If he wishes to feast
On my thighs,
And my character lures him
Let him pay dues to tradition
And I will become his helpmeet.

But if his agwu persist
I will take a go,
Not minding the sacrifices
Or else I will be sacrificed
To the god of his odogwo.