I Wish It Were Me

I wish it were me.

I wish it were me that you chose, me that you wanted, me that you liked.

When you didn’t choose me, it felt as though my whole world was shattered. 

I wanted you so bad.

I still want you, knowing that I could probably never have you.

Sometimes I think about what could have been. 

Sometimes I think about the amazing memories we made together. 

Sometimes I wish you chose me. 

You treated me like such a queen, only to treat me like I never mattered, like you never cared. 

You said all the right things, all of the things that I longed to hear from someone.

You saw me in my most vulnerable state, you saw me at my lowest and you STILL didn’t choose me. 

You made me feel as though I did something wrong. 

You made me feel as though I was not enough.

I hate that I fell for you.

I hate that I think about you all the time.

I hate that I let you ruin my peace.

But most of all, I hate that you changed me. 

The thought of you with someone else kills me inside.

The thought of you with someone else breaks my heart.

I hope you’re happy with her. 

I hope you find your true happiness with her.

I always pray that you are happy, even if it is not with me. 

I’m sorry for falling for you.

I hope Allah (SWT) can heal my heart so that I never think about you again. 

I hope He heals my heart so that I am open to receiving and giving love.

I hope He gives you all the happiness you want and deserve. 

Even though it wasn’t meant to be, I hope you are happy wherever you are.