The verge of falling

Mimie

Am jealous 

How am falling so hard 

After trying my best to self-sabotage 

Moments passed in disbelief at how you could treat me so well 

Post toxic relationship disorder, I call it 

I know he worships the ground I walk on but I can't help but think 

What if he's just in love with the soil on the ground, not me 

I shutter with every breath I take near you as I realize am drowning

Drowning in the sea of kisses you place on my soul 

Without a single hesitation

No, please stop 

Your red flags seem to represent the love you have for me 

Creating a heart-shaped combination of our bodies intertwined 

We scream at the top of our lungs and run back to each other 

Tore each other apart and sew the pieces back with a more passionate love story 

So how come I am so insecure 

You don't hesitate to show me the light at the end of our journey  

"We will work babe" you say 

I am scared, you are so close but somehow I want you in my skin 

To feel your warmth and only then will my inner demons be silenced 

I am jealous of how much you love me and I believe all that you say 

But deep down am still that traumatized little girl 

Are you here to stay, I wonder

Memories are glued to my eyes and each time I close them the darkness seems so bright as your smile torments my soul

Don't go, I want you here 

Be my therapy, I know I am well but each time your love fills me up

I shudder to the fears of tomorrow 

Hold me tight, feel the warmth in my heart that burns in passion 

But scared to burn you to death 

Should I fully reveal the beast of my past 

Will you find the beauty in my beast

You have been the calm in my storm

Your sense of humor might be terrible but in my mind 

You are Joker to my laughter only that this time roles are reversed

You will be the one jumping into the toxic acid of my life but trust me 

Our love will just grow stronger 

Its the last verge of acceptance

Awww boy, don't tell me I am in love 

  • Author: Mimie (Offline Offline)
  • Published: April 20th, 2022 18:08
  • Comment from author about the poem: Post toxic relationship disorder, trying to sabotage a healthy relationship because you don't believe that you deserve to be loved that way.
  • Category: Love
  • Views: 39
  • Users favorite of this poem: L. B. Mek
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  • Crowns4Christ

    Yes, definitely tell him everything,it will ease your mind that he knows and that you're not hiding anything,he will understand and hold you tight, kissing your fears away,you do deserve happiness, and if he makes you happy, then let go of your fears and let him love you, complete honesty is the most important thing

  • Hanani

    If he truly isn't in love with the soil of the ground you walk on but you, then I'm sure even if he hears of your past that broke your heart and is only kept together by your insecurities, he'll want to stay, scrap away your fears and mend it up with deep affection till you forget you even had a past!

  • L. B. Mek

    wonderfully expressive, a great read!
    thanks for sharing
    may I recommend a song by India Arie
    titled, 'he heals me'
    (for that 'he', substitute it
    to whatever your preference is)
    but the songs lyrics, resonate
    with your write's sentiments
    I think, like in these lines:
    'I can play him songs, all through the night,
    And he will listen to every line,
    And even when I'm wrong, he is still kind
    He chooses his words wisely when he tells me I'm not right.
    And yes he is a beautiful man,
    But he is also a beautiful friend
    He heals me
    He knows the real me
    And he accepts me, he never hurts me
    He heals me'

    • Mimie

      Thank you for the heartwarming words, getting introduced to this song is like a hug I needed in this tiresome week. I appreciate it.

    • verona

      I liked this part in particular:
      "

      I know he worships the ground I walk on but I can't help but think

      What if he's just in love with the soil on the ground, not me"

      really resonated :-/ lol



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