Loving what is not ours.

You fall in love with them…

Then you pray you’ll never see them again…

You turn off songs, avoid the fragrance, and no longer eat out...

Seek to be alone, to hurt, in the way that is only you…no one could ever understand…

Cry in the morning then sometimes on the train home…

Why so many wonder why you’ve lost weight…

Thinking that you will smile again…without effort…is unimaginable…

Now knowing that when a heart breaks, you know why so many just end it all…

You sit breathless in your car, because there just might be a sliver of hope, they will walk down this street, where you saw them for the first time…

Snow falls and you feel sick, for your love, was a winter love, and kisses were wet with snow…

You fear each morning when you turn your phone on…praying they have reached out, and dreading, because you know they haven’t…

And everyone that loves you, is so worried about you, and yet they will never know why…you are now a sad person, and being around you makes everyone else sad to…

Is there a light that awaits? A love that will be free for you to join.

You do not care, for as long as they are alive, and still belong to them, and not you, you’ll hope…you’ll be tragic…You will also be so very lucky…

For you love a person that belongs to someone else…yet so few will ever know the joy and sorrow…

Of loving someone you will never have, for if you do, so many will be hurt by your selfishness…

And that you will not do…because you love them so much, not having them will preserve what should have never been touched…All that love them to. For they were first…

The tragedy, the insanity, the harmony, the suffering…the absolute joy…

Of love. To never love is to die. At least you have that…so you live, but is it worth it?

When you open your heart gain…you’ll know.

For in love, we see ourselves naked of the world, our essence…

And to you...yes…it is worth every tear ever shed, every laugh ever shared, and in that moment when you hold them and your heart is in synch with theirs, and you cannot breathe, that is life…Love...and there is not one other person in your life that knows this...for you love someone who you can't have...yet you loved. And you pray that will be enough for a lifetime. Or when they become free to love you as you have loved them, and forever will.