I'm Tired...

 I'm tired of trying...

I'm tired of crying...

I'm tired of the lying...

I'm tired of giving everything to you...

I'm tired of lending...

I'm tired of bending...

I'm tired of this never ending...

I'm tired of the naming...

I'm tired of the shaming...

I'm tired of always the one your blaming...

I'm tired of the disrespect...

I'm tired of going though hell...

I'm tired of repeating...

I'm tired of you cheating...

I'm tired of the bruises...

I'm tired of the excuses...

I'm tired of the using...

I'm tired of the abusing...

I'm tired of the denial that's lying to myself...

I'm tired of the gas lighting...

I'm tired of the hurting...

I'm tired of spending hours day in & day out by myself...

I'm tired of never having no money because you think its great spending it somewhere else...

I'm tired of the taking...

I'm tired of your heart breaking...

I'm tired with the hopelessness...

I'm tired with the confused.com as to why the hell I'm still living & breathing with you...?

I'm tired of wondering why you don't love or why is it I still love you...?

I'm tired of holding on...

I'm tired of the other mask that's really truly you...

And the fake nice guy face you give & play so well in public...

No one has a clue about the monster face...

I'm tired of being loyal...

I'm tired of loving you...

I'm tired of putting my showman face on, so nobody knows what's really going on...

I'm tired that you don't listen...

I'm tired of all the things that you do...

I'm tired of being mugged off...

I'm tired of the nasty things you say...

I'm tired of you always butting in, singing my song...

I'm tired of you taking my shine when I'm on cloud nine...

I'm tired of you going everywhere I do...

I'm tired that you never take me anywhere with you...

I'm tired competing for you everyday...

I'm tired, I'm tired of feeling this way...

I'm tired of caring...

I'm tired of sharing...

I'm tired of you being selfish...

I'm tired of the mocking...

I'm tired of the knocking... 

I'm tired of the screaming & the angry bouts...

I'm tired of trying to make it work Figure it all out...

I'm tired of you taking the love I feel for granted,,,

I'm tired of your way of thinking...

Me loving you is not a weakness,.. It's insulting how you carry & play on the feelings I have for you...

No canoe is sailing in any two that wanna pull together...

No matter the stormy weather, come rain or shine still a team...

Because they love each other obliviously...

There's no team here, I fear there never has been...

On my own in my canoe... No plain sailing to enjoy the view... 

You keep capszing every little thing I say & do in my little canoe that you should've let row off along time ago to adventures a new...

A wise man once said to me...

Characterize people by their actions & you will never be fooled by their words...

I obliviously didn't listen fourteen years I've been listening to you...

It's only the last three years I've been living with you that your actions ain't nothing like the love bombing bombarded on me declaring all so mighty how your love was true & worthy...

From a far distance never to live with you I wouldn't be feeling the way I now do...

Who knew... You knew...

I really didn't & don't mean that much to you...

I think you've only love you...

I'm tired of wondering if its just me...

I can't lose what I never had in you in the first place...

I wish that I knew that love for me was faking it just like you...

You sold me a dream, only to deliver nightmare...

Always keeping score...

I only ever saw glimpses before...

I'm tired of doing nothing when it's absolutely killing me...

I still can't get how you are out of my head...

Your no blessing, Your my curse...

What makes it worse is that you rehearse playing so nice, sugar & spice...

But your not at all...

The only niceness is when your faking but no mistaking...

Your so creepy good at what you do...

I would give you an Oscar & some... Best actor too...

The magic to not having a clue, Is Never to live with you...

 I need my med's, I really do...

I can't get my head or my heart around you...

I'm tired of being the doormat you wipe your feet on...

I'm tired, really truly tired all the way though to my every core...

I'm tired, more than tired of you...

I'm not gonna be a doormat anymore...

It's sad I once thought love could conquer all... 

I'm tired of not being loved at all...

I'm not impossible or hard to love like you say I am...

In fact I'm a blessing... Oh yes I am,

And don't ever forget that you will regret because once you was loved more than anything & treated like a king... Yes believe it or not You was once a lucky man...

I've took your shit for way to long... I might still be present, but my love for you is breaking down...

I'm tired... One day I wont be tired anymore...