Away

Sparkling sunlight and fresh smelling air,

joy lies within everyone around me,

but I am crying tears.

 In the middle of the crowded atmosphere,

I find myself swinging left and right,

unable to find the directions in my head.

My heart pounds so loud yet so quietly,

as if I am almost dead.

 I am dead to him but i tried to stay alive,

he puts me to sleep with his ignorance.

I step out and find myself in the middle of nowhere,

screaming for help but no sound is coming out from my mouth.

The weather is warm but the people are so cold,

I taste the bitter karma that is suppose to belonged to you.

People chase for popularity and pride,

 like how I chased for my sweet safe space that was you.

But people won the price and I lost my price.

 People put you so high, they love you for what you bring.

I put you so high, I love you for what you can't bring.

I sit back into my dark room as they close the curtain and walk away,

I cut the rope to my joy as you let go of the other end of it.

I liked my black box,

So now I love my black box and expand it.

 I am learning how to live in the dark,

As I navigate in the light away from us.