Fatal fix

_lonely__side

When love knocked on my door, I let it in.

Celebrating everything that followed it in

When love demanded more, I gave myself up.

When I became someone you wanted, you promised it was best for us.

 

Love taught me how to do things right.

But it never let me be fair to my individual life.

It shielded me from many risks.

But it cost me my soul, love turned out to be a fatal fix.

 

I surrendered my ride and gave love way.

to hold me hostage and drive wherever it may.

I really believed I could keep on functioning this way.

But disappointments piled up, and resentments made their way.

 

So then, love appeared strange and broken.

Drowning in quarrels and nasty assumptions

A few years ago, love was keeping me alive.

It's now no less than a lethal poison, one which I could never despise.

 

But this poison is what's keeping me breathing.

I'd prefer to stay than go through the process of leaving.

I am a coward, afraid of sadness in love's eyes.

I chose to silence myself rather than hear those painful cries.

 

So I stand up again, with even less trace of me this time.

I welcome this sorrow since, both ways the defeat is mine.

But when I go out of shine, I urge my special ones to remember me.

to remind me of who I was and what I could have been.

  • Author: _lonely__side (Offline Offline)
  • Published: June 12th, 2022 10:26
  • Category: Sad
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Comments1

  • sadkw33n

    How you portrayed love, a toxic love i guess, as something that can cost you yourself, as a "fatal fix", was really interesting. It's a sad poem but it tells a truth most of us don't want to realize at all. Great job ๐Ÿ‘Œ
    Thank you for sharing

    • _lonely__side

      Thank you!! Many a times we come across relations which we value too much but they are toxic to us. We want reality to be what we imagined it to be. Wishful thinking we do, but reality is different and unfriendly at times.

      • sadkw33n

        Indeed. That's when we have to find the courage to let go, and try to build a "better reality" for ourselves. We must learn to work with what we have and let go of the things and the people that harm us, so we can "leave space" in our lives for better people to come. Let's have faith that there are better days at hand๐Ÿ˜Š



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