Who is my father really

hzugman

 

I want to know my father

I'm an old man now with grandchildren some of whom are adults.

I look younger than I am but I'm an old man inside

I have young ideas still even though time and wear have limited their realization a little

My father married a smart, beautiful , ambitious young woman, my mother

He was king of the house until I came along

The firstborn child, a son, a competitor

My mother lavished attention on me and loved me in her way

Before I could walk and before I knew he and I were vying for mom's attention

And I always won

We had an arms length at best relationship until the day he died

He was much younger then than I am now

Jealousy ruined what could have been a fine father-son relationship

Because I'm a pretty decent guy

I pretended to myself and others not to care but I missed having a father figure

It didn't get any better when my parents finally divorced

I'm full of love now and want to give some to him

I don't know how I know but I'm sure it will happen

I want to know what happened to him to make him who he was

I want to know my father.

 

I want to know my father.

  • Author: hzugman (Offline Offline)
  • Published: May 12th, 2022 09:09
  • Comment from author about the poem: I really don't know
  • Category: Family
  • Views: 26
  • Users favorite of this poem: Cassia DeSousa
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  • Cassia DeSousa

    Hello
    this is a bit heartbreaking read, but nonetheless a common story, what is beautiful here is that the heart of the son is ready to just give back love to an absent father, a beautiful spin on what could have turned into a generational pattern of hate, amazing work fellow writer...tchau
    Cassia



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