Demons Dancing Around My Room

Turn the lights off,

Another night I struggle to sleep

So soothing but yet uncomfortable

Eyes wide open but I could barely see

I  begin to see dark shadows dancing all around me

Laughing and giggling as they point in glee

Another one they say , but idk what that means

How do these demons even know me

As I lay there and watch them play with me one came close that look just like me

She almost see through almost like a ghost if I ever seen one , pretty but broken , sweet but unsure

I said why are they here what do they want from me , she just looked at me as if I knew

But I had no clue , demons dancing around me I didn’t know what to do

As I lay there one comes up to me places it’s soft hands around my neck so I couldn’t breathe 

The shadow that looked like me  said just breathe take deep breaths they’re gonna have their way with you see that demon name their is anxiety , she likes to push you to the edge and then retreat it’s fun game she likes to play …she always plays it with me

I couldn’t move I was stuck I couldn’t even see , never had a enemy I couldn’t fight back in front me , another one came and shoved its thin soft hands through my chest straight to my heart and squeezed I shouted in pain but no one could hear me she said that’s depression sometimes she can me mean , as depression climbed on top of me as if to get a better grip  I thought how could a thing that looked so light weigh so heavy on top of me , please get off of me the words were there but they never came out of me , but I knew it heard me

depression said I can’t move sadness and despair excites me  and you have so much of it that it fills me with glee , another crept up  behind me  grabbed my head so tight and started to squeeze she im ADHD, you can’t cure me I’m a like a headache that won’t ever go away and you have no meds to control me she caressed her fingers even deeper playing with my mind making me feel all these things it was like tragic sex scene the way she was brain fucking me I screamed I pleaded I beg my shadow to save me, she said I can’t I’m scared I don’t think it’ll work I said … but your me… you know what to do I’m sure in some way I made you

she yes but I’m your insecurities you gave the wrong parts of you to me I am your fears and I am your doubts , I am your weakness ,

You don’t even know who you are you don’t even have a purpose but you rely on my sister more than you rely on me,

Insecurities who is your sister tell her to help me, in the distance I see a demon, shapeshifter I see she could never keep one form dancing over there turning into different things her names BPD, but she also struggles with who she needs to be  she can only pretend to be you or me or we but she never found her self that’s why she shape-shifts into everything she sees ,the tears started to stream feeling all these things i felt like I was getting g’d fucked from every angle if you ask me but I still I begged  I pleaded but she just looked at me

she said the big guys coming soo to have his way with me she said he’s basically the devil, but I knew he would be

 he’ll probably bring his son suicide so y’all can meet you never know what the devil has plan until he’s greets he will take you for a ride for a fee

And we’ll all disappear soon at the same time isn’t that what you need , just hold on a lil longer and you be free …

and here he comes just do what he’s says and this will be done , I panicked I reached for my gun I was gonna kill these shadows one by one I just wanted to be done  I aimed ….I shot…. Who knew one shot could kill them all 

The room fell silent

My body quivered as I felt them release .. i

an unexplainable heartbeat I felt but

as my eyes begin to close I saw them peep in one last time and smile,

I was confused I thought i won i thought I was done you know I could finally get some sleep

but insecurity walked over to me she was the last face to see

As I felt the warm thickness surround me, like a warm blanket I could drown in soft but thin and it was so red so rich in color as it stained the sheets,

now I wanted to stay up to see , but my eyes were shutting forcibly putting me to sleep .

I transcended out my body  my soul barely intact all I saw was me on the bed. Unable to look back

The devil came behind me hoof placed on my transparent shoulder and he said now you owe me and you know exactly what I need .. he wanted another me , another soul he could feed and he’ll finally give me peace..

he stole the last little innocence out of me,

 all those demons dancing around me were just innocent souls trying to get peace