Goodbye grandmother

Poisoning my lungs and bleeding out my thoughts
It's something that I've tried too many times
I scream inside my mind and tremble on the floor
I've done better with goodbyes
Now I'm breaking down cause i can't stop the pain
You're almost gone, it's like you left
I choke upon despair and hope to find a way
To clear my mind, to calm myself

You're not a bother you're twice my mother
The only touch i would allow, 
how can you leave me now?
Once my grandmother and twice my mother
Only you could make me smile
just stay here for a while

Turn the lights off as i lay myself to sleep
But now your absence is too clear
I think of rainy nights when you were here with me
Whispering stories at my ear
In my dreams i see you playing with my hair
As you remind me to behave 
I can make out that same smile you used to wear
Just an old memory that i saved

You're not a bother you're twice my mother
Your loving hug was once my home 
Don't leave me on my own
Once my grandmother and twice my mother
Don't go just yet, we're not that old, 
stay with me a bit more

Once my grandmother and twice my mother
You've cheated death so many times 
And you bravely fought your fight
But strength runs out, we shouldn't lie, 
This time this is goodbye

Once my grandmother and twice my mother
It's finally time to let you go
Although I love you so
I've kissed your cheek now you can fly
I'm telling you goodbye