unconfronted

Its my biggest mistake

Im rather feeling quite blank

Usually the words spill out of me

But for you I have to love quietly 

I regret it everyday

Seeing how you treat her

Hoping that will be me one day…

It was me.. it was me and that’s why I’m mad

To see you love her, it makes me feel sad?

Why am I sad? I was the on who said no

Everyday it feels like my emotions grow. and grow. and grow.

But I let you go. You didn’t wait like I expected,

Wait for me to finally wake up and see 

That you should have never been rejected.

I was scared, I don’t know of what, 

It was a feeling I had coming from my gut?

My heart felt different, deeply I knew

I wish I had shut them out from the start 

Then my emotions would have never grew

But then there are those moments

The ones where we lock eyes,

just for a second though or you might realise…

Realise its not just eye contact to me,

It makes my stomach dance

it makes my heart leap

I feel like I’ve fallen way too deep

Ive dug myself a hole

And in it I shall stay

Waiting for the right moment

The right second, the right day.