Tonight

Tonight I give up, just give up, 
done with it all.
Done with the happy, done with the sad
Just numb
Smile creeping up my face
A smile of self-deprecation 
A smile of someone who gave it all
But it ended in their fall
How pitiful my soul.
How pitiful this retched broken soul.
Don't sleep, she awakens
The bane of my whole existence
How dreadful my future.
How dreadful for this sutured mind
being held by a bloodied thread.
"Just sleep, let yourself be taken
She gives you the quiet you need
While breaking you more each day"
Voices saying, over and over again.
Tonight I give in, just give in 
Been fighting for too long.
So tired, so tired of all the lying.
I'm fine, I'm fine
So goddamn fine!!!
Fine 
Fine 
Done with trying.

(I just need someone to hear me out. Things are not good up in the headspace ~ said the fragile soul)