Sublimated death wish no longer permeates thru mine every cell

When alive and livingsocial

within webbed wide world

analogous to an emotional hell

I never experienced pomp and circumstances,
and quavers with inconsolable tears

graduation theme song

popularized courtesy Sir Edward Elgar,

thus suicidal ideations no longer relevant

yours truly need not quell

he rages against series of unfortunate events

comprising his life and hard time

(one protracted existential crisis) and yell

like a rebel into the infinite abyss of darkness.

Every subsequent high school graduation year

antedated since June

ninety seventy seven where

yours truly stepped to the podium

to secure his diploma
(I barely squeaked by

from one grade to the next)

stricken with anxiety and experienced urge

to sprint mile a minute evoking manic tear

zipping by at light speed

creating spindleshanks to blur as pair

sorry excuse for legs burning ghee

until reaching destination re:

a specific rocking in casbah Kashmir

actually a sought after interview

with popular Emir.

Personal mailer daemons aside
Azrael readily befriended me before I died

and ably, eagerly and willing obliged to guide

these lovely bones of mine

went for out of world joyride

away to subterranean habitat

where heavenly delight magnified

sense and sensibility overarching credo

unconditional kindred acceptance

downplayed prejudice and pride

communion among apostolic auras

and personas spied

greeting halo trusting word of mouth

as adequate signal to be verified

nullifying former dependence

on prescription medication

to thwart becoming zombified.

The following pharmacological medications
taken courtesy to cope with anxiety,

obsessive compulsive disorder, panic attacks

and generally curbing tendencies to avoid

physiological symptoms such as:

nausea, palmar hyperhidrosis

(unrelenting sweaty palms), and vertigo.

GLYCOPYRROLATE, TAB 2 MG (thrice daily)
CLOMIPRAMINE CAP 50 MG (once nightly)

RISPERIDONE TAB 1MG (once nightly)

FLUOXETINE CAP 20MG (once daily)

PRAZOSIN HCL CAP 1 MG (three pills nightly)

BUSPIRONE TAB 15MG (twice daily)

PRAMIPEXOLE TAB 1MG (once nightly)

CLONAZEPAM TAB 0.5MG (once nightly

AMITIZA 24 MCG
(prescription laxative - as necessary)