Filthy hands

sadkw33n

You are like an animal touching me with force

And everything inside me screams that this is false

Did i turn you on? Is there something I don't know?

Why do you keep on touching me when i have told you "no"?

Please, tell me what i did. Was this all on me? 

Or do you play "hunter" on every girl you see?

How will you excuse yourself? I'm wearing baggy clothes

What did i do that told you you could come this close?

 

Your filthy hands are on my chest and I'm screaming inside

It feels as though it's a bad dream, nothing but a lie 

I'm trying to protect myself, trying to change your plans

But there really is no stopping those two filthy hands

 

You look at me as if I'm prey, your face has turned red

As you insult my body and put fear inside my head 

I'm paralyzed, i need to move, stand up, push you away

You violated something sacred which I cannot replace

I tell myself "this isn't real" as your actions cloud my mind 

My body was assaulted and I can't even cry 

Before, the sky was blue and the sun used to shine

Now it feels like it's snowing in the middle of July

 

Your filthy hands still on my chest, your filthy lips on mine

It feels as if it was a dream, but there's no room to lie

I couldn't protect myself, i couldn't change your plans

There really was no stopping those two filthy hands

 

You didn't beat me up, you didn't rip my clothes

You touched and kissed my body with a "gentle" approach

All you did was force your filthy hands under my shirt 

I was never even pretty, why force on me your dirt? 

Am i supposed to be thankful you didn't rape me then

When your filthy hands snatched from me the faith i had in men?

  • Author: sadkw33n (Offline Offline)
  • Published: June 7th, 2022 00:18
  • Comment from author about the poem: First i was ashamed to talk about what happened because i thought it was my fault for giving him space and not reacting fast enough to what he was doing. So i wrote this poem instead. But then i realized i am not to blame. To all the girls with similar experiences...you are not to blame either! Because "no" means no!
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  • Views: 33
  • Users favorite of this poem: L. B. Mek, JudyStella
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  • Blueledge

    Some men's behaviour is unacceptable. Let's be honest. Most men's behaviour is unacceptable. I feel like apologising but what good would it do. We education from a young age. I believe we could teach empathy and make the world a better place.

    • sadkw33n

      Thank you for commenting. To be honest, for a period of time, i was convinced that most men would do the same thing to me if they were given the chance. Then i realized how unfair my way of thinking was to men who respect women and themselves. Your comment is another piece of proof for me that i was right to still believe that there are good and caring men out there. Thank you for that🙂

    • Blueledge

      It helps to be assertive. It's an important tool to learn.

    • tallisman

      Hi Sadkw, (auto correct keeps putting in Sadie!).I thought your poem was really good! Unlike the experience it described. You have a talent with words…

      • sadkw33n

        Thank you so much!! I'm actually kind of new to poetry and writing (plus my English is kind of rusty😁) so reading comments like yours is really encouraging. Thanks again!😊

      • L. B. Mek

        'You violated something sacred which I cannot replace'..
        this is that True, consequence
        those filthy, Beasts
        will never, fathom..
        that their seconds worth
        of warped, self-gratification
        can destroy
        the Art in nature
        and sweetness of Life
        for those
        they chose
        to opportunistically, assault and abuse..
        but dear Poet
        although it may take Time
        and a lot of restarts
        you can fight your way, back
        to that you
        of before
        and in doing so, Defiantly
        triumph
        over, that Animal's actions
        reassert
        Your Will
        over
        Your Life
        and claim it all back
        it just may need, some Time
        and a lot
        of gripped fists and sighs..
        (I'm so sorry for your suffering
        but I feel privileged, to read
        your Warrior's Poetry
        stay strong!
        may peace and kindness
        pave your horizons)
        and I don't care
        what You think, your mirror
        says about you
        to me, that you can weave
        these words
        tells me, You
        are Beautiful!
        where it counts the most
        baggy clothes or miniskirts
        makes no difference
        you just do, You
        loud and Proud!
        cos
        fck that shtty, ill-Fate
        you're gonna overcome
        and Shine, bright
        again
        just take your time, to truly
        heal...

        • sadkw33n

          Reading your comment did more than just encourage me. Thank you for your beautiful and encouraging words. But most of all thank you for the time you devoted into writing such a kind comment for me. I've moved past this awfully uncomfortable experience and I've left the "beast" behind me. I found the strength to acknowledge that not all men are the same. Your comment is also more than enough proof that i am right. I honestly can't thank you enough for your support. I mean, I'm a complete stranger who just happened to post a sad little poem and yet...after reading what you had to say about it....you gave me something precious...you gave attention to my emotions. I'm not ashamed anymore but still, reading your comment gave me a feeling of closure. I feel more comfortable talking about what happened than ever before! Thank you! I hope somehow i can return the favour and do or perhaps write something that just might help you, or at least give you a warm feeling, as well.😊

          • L. B. Mek

            😲😌😎

          • JudyStella

            First of all I am so proud of you for talking it out. It’s so much better when you let it out and release that beast inside of you that gnaws you. I really appreciate you shedding light on this. I am very sorry for the bad experiences. And also it isn’t your fault at all. I just love how you have constructed the poem and those raw emotions flowing beautifully.
            When your filthy hands snatched from me the faith i had in men?
            This line is so touching and has this strong impact. Thankyou so much for sharing this poem!

            • sadkw33n

              Thank you JudyStella for taking the time to read my poem and comment on it. It was really hard to talk about it at first, sometimes even thinking about it made me re-experience the whole deal and it felt like it was happening all over again. But i pulled through...i guess sometimes you just have to have a little faith that not all people are the same. Thank you for your support! And for checking out my poems just like you said you would. It's always a pleasure to hear from you!☺️

              • JudyStella

                So true. Somewhere in the world humanity still exists so we have to be a bit stronger. Of course! I really like your poems❤️ The pleasure is mine😊

                • sadkw33n

                  That's very sweet of you ☺️. I'm honoured by your words and the fact that you like my poems. I hope i get to see more of yours soon!

                  • JudyStella

                    😊Thankyou



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